#i want a ghost therapist now XD

[sunshowersanddandelionwine]

Couple of things What is a showmance? (I was not a theatre kid lol)

And now I’m thinking of a beauty and the beast au.

Like Soap can act just as “monstrously” and is probably more destructive in general than Ghost but he’s regarded as the beauty, And Ghost sure he can act the monster but he’s more self contained and wasn’t even responsible for his curse.

Jonny would love Simon whether he looked like a beast or not and Ghost ’d also probably view his form as keeping him safe from people (if he’s a scary monster people will leave him tf alone). Soap will not leave the poor bastard alone (if he didn’t want to hand around, there is no way you could keep him in place).

Roba cursed Ghost with his last breath but it didn’t take full effect because technically he killed then cursed Simon not Ghost, So his body changed not his mind.

Oh god all I can think of is them singing different songs together and that’s how the start bonding because humans will always find a way to make music. (Different universe but now the dancing and the dreaming is stuck in my head so thank you for that)

a "showmance" is basically a romance that starts during the run of a show, sometimes between leads and sometimes between people in the rest of the cast and crew! there are a bunch of real life couples who met on set or in rehersals and got together either during or after a show's run! (not all of them are Great or healthy, but thats a whole different story lmao)

but for this, i was thinking of simon riley who was a well established, well liked west end singer and actor (the west end is the equivalent of broadway but for the uk) but had to leave the stage due to some undisclosed reason. maybe family troubles, maybe something else, i dont know yet this is still very nebulous in my mind XD but after everything settles, he ends up joining an off-west end production with an up and coming actor - john mactavish! its basically shaping up to be like a sweet, fluffy, slightly angsty (because when isnt there angst lmao) fic! price is directing, nikolai is conducting maybe? roach is in the sound and lighting booth or a stagehand behind the scenes. yeah!

BEAUTY AND THE BEAST AUS ARE MY FUCKING JAM OKAY its my favorite fairy tale of all time and the animated version is my favorite disney movie of all time and i have to make at least one batb au of my current fandom (also, as a side note, if anyone finds a ghoap batb au please link it to me ive been searching and i havent found any yet T-T)

i absolutely agree that soap might seem like the stereotypical "beauty" role in that hes got the looks and the smarts and the charisma, but that man is a Menace who does not take shit standing down! >:D my favorite interpretations and tellings of batb are when both people have something to learn from the other. for ghost, its that he isnt a monster despite what everyone else has told him in the past and he is worthy of love and respect and dignity despite what hes done. and for soap, its that he doesnt have to react to every little thing with anger, that he is more than his looks, and that he has value outside of what he can provide others. they make each other better <3

and ohhhhh dont get me started on the dancing and the dreaming i will cry for several days and i will have my therapist send you the bill (/j) XD

[thornsamigurumi]

spop saturday

the prompt for this week was WIP it good, so here are my fav WIPs, including, for the bonus points, 1 that hasn't updated for 6 months or more :P

cougar by mxsinshine and raptorred - Catra is 38, single, and forced to mingle. She meets Adora but will she take a chance and open her life and heart to the young woman? Join them in this modern day romantic dramedy and watch these two navigate missed generational references, different life experiences, and the joys of parenthood. On Ao3 now. Rated E for mature audiences, viewer discretion is advised (you may laugh out loud, or at least we hope).

- love this, its amazing and i hope it gets more eventually :)

ice breakers (and history makers) by inbrightmoon - after a disaster debut into the competitive figure skating world, Adora’s lost her confidence, reputation, and most importantly, her passion. Adora is taking multiple steps to get it back, but when she realises she has to compete against her former teammate, Catra, Adora finds herself wondering whether her passion ever was ever really in skating at all.

-only one more chapter to go (unless the brainrot spreads XD) and its been a fantastic ride :)

polar night/midnight sun - by @lisra-writes - It's been almost a year since Adora left everything behind to take over a lonely house and a fishing boat in the north of Norway. It's not going very well. Suddenly, someone from the past makes her an offer, to help a young woman in deep trouble.

-can't wait to see where this goes, the girls both have issues to work through and the feelings starting to grow are gonna complicate their relationship as therapist and client

slipstream by @n7punk - Catra crashed and burned so hard in high school she’s pretty sure her old friends think she’s dead from how much of a ghost she is online and she’d like to keep it that way. Cybersecurity is only her day job, and though she convinced Entrapta that they should minimize the law-breaking to avoid getting caught, after Entrapta taught her everything she knew, Catra also started feeling the pull to commit those little breaches online that are technically felonies, but people should design their sites better if they want to keep her out. At least, that’s how she feels until she sees something she shouldn’t have and she’s forced back in connection with the high school “friend” she wants to see the least. She’s happy with Entrapta. She doesn’t need settled down straight girls and malicious hackers ruining her new life, but she can’t leave Adora vulnerable either when she’s so close to the scene of the crime with a kid in the picture that Catra has to make sure is safe. If the Feds ever do catch her, this should count towards community service. (The messiest hacker AU ever conceived, and also the single mom!Adora AU)

-i am loving this! hacker catra/entrapta is great and watching catra navigate her QPR with Entrapta while working through her feelings for Adora has been a blast. my favorite thing may be seeing catra's interactions with Adora's kid

[megaawkwardhuman]

hello hi hey I'm icarus (but I'm also fine with virgo) and welcome to my blog!

idkf how you got here but uhhh congrats?

also sorry if parts of the gif look weird idfk how to fix it

I'm a neurodivergent artist who talks about gay vampires (wwdits) a lot!

I do have other interests tho like ofmd, good omens, hannibal, re-animator, interview with the vampire, the band ghost, the world of mr plant, south park, and so much more (it's just that wwdits is just what I think about the most)

things I've made:

I've written a few fic before and one can be found on my blog! it's a post season 4 nandermo fic and here's a link if you wanna check it out :)

as for the rest can be found on my ao3 here! (I'm not going to move the post season 4 fic there mainly cause idk if I really wanna)

I made a uquiz a while ago that basically tells you what you would be if you where in the wwdits universe (a vampire, a familiar. an energy vampire etc)

I have an instagram that I just post my art to and that's really it

things I like to make:

as you can probably gather by now I primarily do pixel art but I also like to doodle/sketch with good old pencil and paper

I make a LOT of kandi (primarily singles) buuut I don't really post it on here (I mean unless someone asks me to I'm more than willing to share)

I kinda write? like I've written fics before and I DO have a bunch of wips but it's kinda hard for me to finish a fic due to the fact that I get distracted easily and the fact that I'm really dyslexic (you have no idea how badly I wanna fist fight the english language in a denny's parking lot at 3am)

oh while it's not a medium or anything but I'd like to mention I LOVE to draw characters from the media I like as pastel bunnies! (tho at this current moment it's primarily wwdits characters I draw) is it weird? yeah but I like to so I'm not stopping anytime soon if you want a rough explanation as to why I made a long post about it

fav characters:

guillermo de la cruz from wwdits (seriously I'm fucking feral for this man he's my top blorbo atm! he has my gender in a chokehold and I relate to him A LOT also harvey guillen is just really fucking hot-)

nandor the relentless also from wwdits (not as crazy about him but like he fascinates me and I love his goofy cringefail vibes... HE'S ALSO REALLY HOT-)

dib from invader zim (while I haven't watched invader zim in a while I still consider dib to be a fav! hell he's my fucking profile pic. he's one of the first ever characters in something I've seen that I've related to)

stede from ofmd (he's a huge fucking mood and I too jump into things head first without any plans whatsoever)

argos from twomp (a new addition to my fav character list since I stumbled upon twomp more recently. idk I just like him like go googly eye man date that murderous plant dude! wow that must sound weird to those who don't know what the world of mr plant is XD. it also might have to do with the fact that he's kinda socially awkward)

mr plant from twomp (another new addition. idfk something about that murderous plant I find oddly relatable? I think it's the fact that he's also socially awkward. arguably more than argos)

herbert west from re-animator (idk I think this autistic man with no care for ethics is neat)

I have more but for now those are the ones I'm gonna list :)

other shit:

as I've already said I have dyslexia, I possibly have ADHD (never officially diagnosed buuuuut really fucking confident I do and a past therapist said I most likely do), I keep running into situations where I question if I have autism or not so take that as you will, and despite what it may seem I have really REALLY bad social anxiety (well I have overall anxiety too but let's just say there's a reason I spend a lot of time online and not out and about)

asks as you can already tell are open

DMs are also open (tho I will say it's mainly to mutuals)

WARNING I KEYBOARD SMASH A LOT!

nandermo shipper but I'm fine with other ships involving the two :)

overall I try to be nice on here cuz there's enough negativity out there why add to it? tho key word here is try (I've gone on small rants here before and there's the possibility I will again)

I really REALLY fucking love bats and frogs THEY'RE JUST LITTLE GUYS HOW CAN I NOT?

there will be moments where for one reason or another (sleep deprived, sad, bored, it's a tueday, etc etc) I'll be reminded that oh yeah I fucking love frogs and will just start spam reblogging frog posts so be warned if you see me reblog a frog photo and read the words frog blogging or frog posting in the tags run while you still can (or don't cuz frogs are the best and need to be loved and cherished)

tag stuff:

misc thoughts/ideas/this tag is mainly random shit: throwing up my thoughts onto tumblr again

theories/meta/looking too much into small stuff: word garbage™

answering asks: answering stuff

my art: *funny tag for my art*

bunny art related posts: bun stuff

mothman memo related posts: mothman memo stuff

fanfics I've written: gather around and lend me your time

edits I've made: edit shmedit

memes I've made: brought to you by ms paint

show + tags thing: + tags

all the weekly wwdits sparkle on images: sparkle on it's gay vamp day!!!

posts that involve irl friends of mine: friend chaos

follow for a fuck ton of reblogs, art, and long tangents about whatever takes over my mind atm

thanks for reading, have a nice day, and remember: baby bats are called pups

this has nothing to do with this post I just thought this was important info plus I just wanted to throw in this cute bat image I found on google

[twilightknight17]

Today on P3R, a long update: Another full moon, KIDS IN THE WALLS!, actual consequences for shit teachers, and new abilities!

It is interesting to see that the number of Lost standing around increases over the leadup to the full moon. And other people are noticing.

We haven’t been able to talk to Fuuka yet, either, even though she supposedly has potential.

A girl passed out at the front gate of the school, and now rumors are running rampant because people think it’s a ghost. Junpei has the details, so, over to you, Junpei!

After a riveting story, Yukari refuses to believe it’s a ghost, so she wants to spend the week collecting information. Ughhhhhhhhh. Yukari, I have social links to do. Please. Don’t do this to me.

I’m already getting woken up at ungodly hours when we’re not even in Tartarus.

Baby boy, I expected you a lot closer to after we fought the Priestess. I’ve been so busy.

Pharos is just here to inform us that doom is once again a week away. He’s promised to come visit after again, though, so we’ll see how that goes. XD

Returning to school, Mr. Ekoda is off on a tangent about ghosts and spooky shit in his walls.

Still no teaching happening in this school.

I went out with Chihiro, the student council’s treasurer, and found out that the reason she’s so wary around guys is because her dad is a “very scary person”. She’s apparently away from him now, but oh my GOD. Can we get one visible, functional parent in this series other than Sojiro Sakura? I’m trying to think of any now, and my list is like… Sojiro, Zenkichi, Maki and Masao’s moms, and…?????

Another school day, and I guess we should finally go hang out with Kenji. He says he only needs a few minutes of my time.

Of course, as soon as I got there, he asked me to wait a minute, because…

Jesus christ, dude.

…..jesus christ, Ms. Kanou. You’re the ETHICS TEACHER.

Fine, Kenji. Fine. Go ahead. Do whatever. It’s cool. I am just vibing here until I can go home and watch TV.

Trish is hosting “Who’s Who?” and talking about a notable 20-year-old therapist with a beauty mark. This has to be a rerun, because Maki was 20 in P2, which was ten years ago. But then again, Featherman is all reruns, so… makes sense.

So, after combining what we know about all the various ghost stories, we’ve determined that all three girls who ended up in the hospital were friends. They also all hung out in that sketchy alley behind Port Island Station, where the bar and stuff are.

Yukari wants to go back there and investigate. Junpei is less than thrilled. He keeps insisting it’s a bad idea. I’m inclined to agree.

Yukari says she’s more afraid of stuff she can’t see. Junpei counters that he’s more afraid of things he can see. Like knives. And bats. But Yukari doesn’t listen, and just says that if it’s so “dangerous”, all the better that all three of us go.

Yukari, I’m gonna miss Featherman while you’re busy getting us killed.

Things immediately go bad, as they immediately peg us for Gekkoukan students and tell us to leave. Junpei wants to leave, and Yukari immediately says the wrong thing.

Like, how do you not have the situational awareness to know that that’s the worst possible thing you could have said? Thank goodness Shinji is around to save our asses.

Though, Yukari still doesn’t want to leave without information. Shinji tells her that the three girls spent their time bragging about bullying Fuuka Yamagishi, who has been out of school for almost a week at this point. Which means our next step, after getting home safe, is to ask her teachers what happened to her.

...Junpei has a point, Yukari. My god. You can’t yell at Junpei for running off on the monorail and then just charge into a sketchy area with no weapons or plan. Ugh. Over the weekend, I need a break. I found a wild Ken hanging out at the shrine on Sunday with Yukari and Junpei. Apparently they know him. But I am spending the day playing more of my MMO.

School on Monday is great, though, because people are finally grasping that their actions have consequences!

Fuuka is trapped in Tartarus because of her idiot “friends”. And her teacher has been covering it up.

She's gonna execute you~~

It’s been ten days since Fuuka vanished. Normally, spending that long in Tartarus, someone would definitely be dead. But since Tartarus only exists in the Dark Hour, Fuuka’s only been gone ten hours, from her perspective. So we have the chance to go in and get her back. Minato, Akihiko, and Junpei are going to wait in the gym for the hour to change, and hope that we end up near where Fuuka is.

Natsuki is going to stay in the dorm, where she’ll be safe. But she’s… apparently awake during the Dark Hour without exploding?

We probably should have brought her, because she’s on her way here. And letting the school shift around us ended up with all of us separated.

I really wish I wasn’t, babe.

Pharos says we’re going to need Fuuka’s power to deal with what’s ahead. And then heads off again, because god forbid he come with me to find the others. XDDD But eventually, Minato manages to track down both Akihiko and Junpei, and Fuuka.

She’s understandably freaked out. But she’s got navi powers that have kept her safe, and they’re stronger than Mitsuru’s. Akihiko’s not making a strong case for getting her on our side, though, just handing over an evoker with no explanation.

Together, we all manage to puzzle out that these big giant shadows are showing up on the full moons, but we don’t really have time for more than the actual revelation, because it’s full moon right now, and Mitsuru and Yukari are in trouble in the lobby.

Fuuka awakens her persona to protect both us and Natsuki, who wandered into Tartarus, and with it the ability to scan for weaknesses. Which is good, because the Emperor and Empress keep switching affinities. Plus, Lucia is cool. ^_^

Anyway, Natsuki isn’t going to remember any of this, fortunately, and Fuuka is safe. So we can go back to our usual days at school.

...I… hm. Well, it didn’t kill me, and I got a point of courage, but it didn’t seem to do anything else. So. Okay. X’D

The history teacher blitzed past two more periods of history in his quest to reach the Sengoku period so he can talk about samurai. Yuko’s got past beef with a girl who I think has Makoto’s voice actress. Apparently they dated the same guy in middle school, and Yuko got blamed even though it was the guy who was two-timing them.

Apparently I just have a face that says, “Tell me your deepest secrets.” This is like the fourth person.

All of my friends text like freaks. Except Akihiko.

I was having a half-decent time with the Gourmet King. Kind of. But then he had to get all weird on me, because he was jealous that some girl asking him who I was instead of asking him out. This guy, like everyone else, has problems. And part of it is that he’s covering up his problems with food.

And, uh, whatever this is.

Pharos came back a lot sooner this time!

I’ve wanted to be your friend this whole time, idjit. Social link, goooooo~

Man, you didn’t even have a name until right now. You poor thing.

Off to see the Gourmet King again the next day because he’s the only link ready to rank up, and that guy is back again to complain at him. Apparently GK took money from an elementary schooler that was supposed to go towards cram school and the guy wants it back. GK volunteered me as his bodyguard, and is being weird again.

...is he SERIOUSLY in a cult??? Do we need a cult on top of everything else?

Ikutsuki calls us up for a meeting, and he has new gear for us! This must be a new scene, because we’re finally getting the new uniforms from the trailer! We’re all fancy now, and apparently the shoulder guards unlock a new skill called “theurgy”. Which is our individual special attacks! We took a special trip into Tartarus for a scripted thing to try them out, and I only got to see Yukari’s, but it was super-cool. She did the archery pose like Feather Pink. ^_^

And we all got to do the badass walk into Tartarus in our new gear.

Lastly, at the end of this long marathon play session……

Elizabeth is still the best of my friends.

[nani-nonny]

I swear nonny am about to go to your house and enter just to ask you; WHY YOU MADE IT SO SHORT?!?!?!/HJ

Ngl, i was watching gameplay of video game call " ghost trick " until i got email notification about your " am blue " it took me half minute to realize it's; 1- from you. 2- it's " I'm blue " fic 💙💙💙💙.

I start reading and what else?! Mf Old timer strick again with LCD, am.so close to tackle that mf to STOP BULLYING HIM!! He had enough!/j

Like the cry bullied baby he is, LCD leaves immediately to his tent to cry leaving the big boys to talk.

Blue chewing the jerky reminded me of that one obnoxious kid who chew gum just so he doesn't focus on the lecture in classroom 🤣

When DMD asked old timer why he get called old timer i felt; 1- bruh moment because " old timer = old as fuck ". 2- What if LCD's turn came up?!? ( now idk what i must get worried about?! LCD get exposed to the rest of the leos or WDS's fic end & bishop... Nani you're torturing me).

So back to the name choosing and no lies or disrespect? I feel you took half of chapter describing what old timer feels whe he got asked the question 😂 it made me think " yo nani are you trying to skip or give little details in the fic?! Answer me! " 🤣

After 24 years, old timer finally answer with he's obviously older which wants me to pull the " you don't say " meme xD

Then here comes the age reveling where i get to know REUNION IS 61!! AFTER THAT IS DMD WITH 49 And WDS is 44 and i bet you money on it; LCD is the youngest!! I just know it!! (Which make it more funny because the middle kids are gonna bully the youngest for begin a killer)

Reunion's Audacity calling them " children " made me laugh, imagine his old ass whenever he regroup with them he say " okay kids/children... " or " kids that's enough " 🤣🤣

And then he turns to LCD's tent and called him out remind me of mom when she says " you're (name doing something) tomorrow " which DOESN'T help me sleep at all.

It would be funny if LCD wasn't sleep but after hearing Reunion's order he REALLY isn't getting any sleep LOL.

AND THEN THE BIG STUFF HAPPENS!! My dude slips and admits he didn't win the war on his first try and man oh man!! He cracked some gears into the two (who knows maybe 3 if LCD wasn't sleep).

And then dipped and left like a dad announcing he's going to get the milk.

Leaving DMD & WDS, am sure WDS WANTS to share about his ghost brothers but after knowing DMD lost everyone... Yeah he said nope to that, NANI YOU'RE TORTURING THEM!!!

Hahahaha! All I’m Blue chapters are about 1-2k words long heheh

Also, you have me on your notifs? :((( thank you /pos

Achilles(LCD) just makes it so easy for Old Timer (Reunion) to tease him. /j Old Timer’s totally not trying to see where Achilles’s limits are so that he knows where are the good places to step in a field of metaphorical landmines /hj

“Nani you’re torturing me” I’m not trying to :) /t

Old Timer is a sentimental old man whose therapist told him it was okay to take a moment to himself to think long and hard. And he’s trying not to spill too much about himself, so he has to take a moment to think or he’ll say too much, as seen at the end of the chapter :)

Yess!!! Age reveal! Old Timer is the oldest at 61, Barbarian (DMD) is 49 (I thought a lot about what his age is and nearly made him 53 because it made more sense for the DMD fic but he also greatly exaggerated his age in his fic so… *shrugs*), and Big Blue (WDS) is the youngest at 44 (he’s currently 1 or 2 years younger in his fic at the moment).

Old Timer’s original age was going to be 70, but I cut him some slack and reminded myself that he’s not that old, I’m unconsciously trying to make fun of him. But he does have some elder rights to call them children, they are almost 2 decades younger than him hahaha

And it would be funny if Achilles (LCD) was awake through it all *sweats and runs away*

And oh how the mighty have fallen! Old Timer slips up his words and spills more than he would have liked hahaha! He really kicked into high gear and left as quickly as he could, can’t risk spilling more beans!

“Nani you’re torturing them!!” Nuh uh /t

[clenastia]

self confidence is a skill that can be learned and you have to let yourself and your art exist distinct from how others perceive it. you will never exist or create in a way that nobody criticizes and that is NOT a bad thing. you obviously care a lot about your work or you wouldn't fret over it this much, but fixating so heavily on the potential opinions of people you made up to criticize you isn't healthy and isn't doing you any good. you're allowed to set that weight down and I truly believe you can do it.

I do try! when i catch myself spiralling i generally try to forcfully redirect my thoughts, even if it means completely ignoring whatever triggered it, but unfortunately sometimes i feel like im stuck in a loop because thinking of getting published triggers spirals of anxiety so i cant think too much about it which means i never get around to DOING it which makes me upset because i've always WANTED to get published, but when i try to seriously consider it i get all tangled up in the anxieties and ugh.

in all honesty i fell into the trap of thinking therapy would be a quicker fix than it is, where the therapist could give me a list of steps to do and my anxiety/issues would go away once i did them. so i put a bunch of unrealistic expectations on therapy but unfortunately there IS no magical list of steps to making your brain work right. you just. gotta wake up every day and push your way through the spirals and face the things you're afraid of. meds help, for sure, i don't get panic attacks anymore and the anxiety doesn't stress me out so much i end up crying or shutting down most of the time. but like. everything else, the solution is just: ignore it. keep trying. and there's no. fucking. steps to just. "do these three things and your brain will work like a neurotypical one!" and it fucking sucks and i hate it and i still gotta keep trying if i wanna get anywhere.

I haven't been on meds for a full year yet, and therapy less than that, so im sure with time I'll get to a place where i CAN push through those specific fears and get to where i want to be, and that in a lot of ways i'm still just rushing things and wishing i could be better NOW instead of having to put in months and years of work.

a lifetime of self-worth issues don't get resolved with pills and six months of therapy, but sometimes its just so GODDAMN unfair and i just want a magic cheat sheet to getting better :(

or maybe someone who can do like. literally everything for me so i don't have to face it myself lol.

can there be a business for that? like. be your own ghost writer. someone else gets all the credit and hate mail and deals with all the publishers. but you get to write your silly little stories and still make profit.

that'd be nice xD

totally ripe for abuse and probably actually a terrible idea but like. in an idealistic way. it'd be nice. y'know?

[the1trueanon]

Idea 7: Gregory did not have abusive parents.

A lot of fanfics I've read about the 3-star ending all seem to have one thing in common, Gregory having at least one bad parent. Most have Gregory's father being terrible or just having left the family. Some of them have both mother and father be horribly abusive.

I had a different idea: what if instead of abusive parents, Gregory had the opposite: 2 parents who loved him more than anything else. 

That does leave us with a troublesome question: If that's the case, then why does Gregory evidently live in a box?

Let us create a timeline of possible events:

Gregory is born.

At around age 2 or something, Gregory's father is now out of the picture. This isn't because he abandons his family, no.

It is because he dies.

It is quick and unexpected, there is no warning. The reason can be whatever you want. (The more tragic the better.)

So now Gregory's mother (M from here on out) now has to single-handedly take care of toddler Gregory.

She does an amazing job! Her normal profession as a therapist (wink) helps her a lot with making sure Gregory behaves.

It also helps M explain to him where his father is, and helps him grasp the dark concept of death at an early age.

M also makes certain that Gregory knows just how much his father loved him, even if he can't remember him. She makes sure to let him know he is loved by her every day.

M also teaches him some basic housekeeping tasks, so that Gregory can take care of himself when she has late nights at work.

Then one day at work, when Gregory is around 8 or 9, M gets a new patient at work. Some blonde beta tester, the only thing of note is her inconsistent childhood memories and the fact her 4 previous therapists have gone missing.

It's a bit weird and slightly concerning, but what is the worst that can happen?

… I think we all know what happened next.

Gregory wouldn't suspect anything was wrong, thinking his mom is just having another late night at work.

Then some people show up, they say that his mother has, *ahem* "gone missing" and that they have to take him to an orphanage for the time being.

Gregory immediately knows that his mother is dead. He can hear it when they stutter just before saying "gone missing." Ironically, his mother did the same thing when she first explained where his father went.

Before he gets a chance to properly grieve, Gregory gets put in an orphanage with about a dozen other children. This is because he doesn't have any relatives.

Most of the caretakers there seem apathetic. Some care a bit more, but it is leagues away from how much his mother cares-... cared for him.

One of the caretakers seems to actively hurt him whenever they can. They hate kids (like Vanessa in the game, but without the valid excuse of being possessed by a British furry) and seemingly only took the job either as a way to get some easy money or as a chance to hurt kids.

When Gregory finally gets a chance to cry over his mother's death, that "caretaker" is there yelling at him to "stop whining and get over it"

This is too much for him, so he decides to run away. He finds living in a box in an alley to be difficult, but at least no one can hurt him now.

Then the games events happen.

I think that this idea could work. The sudden shift between having a loving home and then being thrown into a harsher environment would make Gregory distrustful of adult strangers.

After everything though, things would get better. Gregory gets the father figure he never really had in the form of a robot bear (wow this series has gotten weird) and a loving… mother? Sister? Aunt figure? in Vanessa.

            Also if you're wondering how Gregory would react to learning who killed his mother, I think he would understand that it was Vanny’s doing, not Vanessa's, and be quick to reassure her that he doesn't blame her. Vanessa would likely hate herself just that little bit more, knowing that it was her (noitwasvannys) who orphaned a child.

As a show of forgiveness though, maybe Gregorys mother could come back as a ghost and continue to be Vanessas therapist, since she doesn't trust herself around living therapists because of previous experience.

Oh. My god. This is an amazing idea! Gregory's mom being one of the therapists Vanessa went through?? Yes yes yes!! And then going through so many caretakers, and ending up with some asshole? Ooouuugghhhh I wanna hold the poor kid 🥺

("Possessed by a British furry" is the best way I have ever heard Afton and the Glitchtrap virus described, can we keep referring to them as such? XDDD)

But you're right, this would make a lot of Gregory's behaviors make sense, and also tie him in closer with the storyline. He's not just some random kid anymore (or the unfortunate robot child), he's the kid of a victim of Vanny and Glitchtrap.

Plus, him knowing it was "Vannessa" (really Vanny) who killed his mom, and being able to forgive her for it and accept her as a new caretaker figure? B e a u t i f u l. They're slowly moving on, accepting one another, and acknowledging that what they've been through is neither of their faults, and they can choose to either wrongly blame each other, or come together as the last people they really have.

Plus, ghost therapist/mom!! Best thing ever XD

[isrustandstardust]

1. What type of criminal would you be?

A very very sick serial killer like Ed Gein.

2. What are you listening to right now?

I lived with a Killer. I watch it every morning.

3. If you had to choose a stripper name, what would it be?

Vixen.

4. If your phone started ringing, who would you hope is calling?

Nobody, I hate talking on the phone.

5. Do you drink?

A little.

6. Do you smoke?

Way too much.

7. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

Eyes, attitude.

8. Do you get attached easily?

Definitely no.

9. Do you like your eye color?

It’s pretty common but I like it.

10. Have any stupid human tricks?

11. Humor me. What physical ideal do you imagine in a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner?

I don’t have an ideal. I like blue eyes, but it’s not a must have. I don’t dwell a lot on physical features.

12. What type of personality traits do you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner?

Honesty, kindness, intelligence and a little bit of perversion.

13. Any other essential quirks/interests/other you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner?

I need someone with similar interests.

14. Any romantic gestures you really like?

I’m not into romantic gestures at all.

15. Any sexual fantasies? Are you daring enough to share one?

I have lots, but I keep them private.

16. Have you ever been in love?

Once.

17. Do you have a crush/romantic interest in anyone?

I’m in love with my husband.

18. What’s your sexual orientation (if you feel comfortable answering)?

Bi.

19. What’s your favorite color and why?

I’d say black but technically it’s not a color. So I’ll say orange and teal.

20. What was your most embarrassing moment?

I really can’t remember one.

21. Do you ever wish you were someone else?

It happens.

22. What were you like when you were a kid?

Awkward xD

23. What would your dream house be like?

Full of light, with a big garden.

24. What last made you laugh?

My husband being silly.

25. Do you have a place you like to go to collect your thoughts?

I stay at home when I need to.

26. What is your favorite/least favorite food?

I like red meat and I do not eat bread or pasta.

27. What turns you on?

Intelligence and perversion.

28. What turns you off?

Stupidity.

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

Once.

30. Would you go bungee jumping/sky diving if given the chance?

Yup.

31. Do you have any siblings?

A younger brother.

32. Do you like to dance?

A lot.

33. What is your definition of cheating?

Doing something you cannot talk about with your partner.

34. Have you ever stolen anything?

Yes.

35. Do you regret anything?

I could have done a few thing better.

36. Do you have any phobias?

Arachnophobia, thalassophobia, atelophobia.

37. Ever broken any bones?

No, never.

38. Ever come close to death?

Twice.

39. What is your religion/spirituality, if any?

It’s a really complex matter.

40. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist?

Yes, with no use.

41. Are looks important in a relationship?

No.

42. Are you more like your mom or your dad?

I’m not like my parents.

43. What is your favorite season?

Autumn.

44. Do you have any tattoos?

I have 15.

45. Do you have any piercings?

Not atm, but I’d love to get pierced again in the future.

46. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

5 boyfriends, 1 girlfriend.

47. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character?

Like, always xD.

48. What is your favorite thing to do?

Drawing.

49. If you could only visit one place outside of your hometown, where would it be?

Iceland.

50. Do you get jealous easily?

No, not at all. But I get jealous with a reason.

51. What is your favorite type of food?

Low calories food.

52. Do you ever want to get married?

I am married.

53. Who was your first kiss with?

My best friend at the time.

54. How many people have you kissed?

I don’t know tbh.

55. What is your idea of the perfect date?

Being with someone I like.

56. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

Introvert, almost asocial.

57. Do you believe in life on other planets, ghosts, or mythical creatures?

I believe in life in the universe.

58. What talent do you wish you’d been born with?

The kind of music talent my husband has.

59. What is your saddest memory?

All the memories related to my mother.

60. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Yes.

61. Do you believe in soul mates?

Yes.

62. Have you ever dyed your hair?

A lot. Pink, blue, red, purple, blonde, gray, orange.

63. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?

You have no idea XD

64. Would you go against your moral code for money?

It depends on how much money.

65. What are three things most people don’t know about you?

I have several personality disorders [family and friends do not know], I can write backwards like DaVinci, I’m into pretty weird stuff.

66. Have you ever been diagnosed with depression?

Yes.

67. Have you ever contemplated suicide?

Yes.

68. How long was your longest relationship?

4 years and counting.

69. Is the glass half empty or half full?

I don’t know, is it alcoholic?

70. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

Leeet’s not go there...

71. Who is your most loyal friend?

My best friend Francesca.

72. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

He’s a good man.

73. What is your favorite thing about your body and your personality?

I like my hands and lips. And I like my wit and sarcasm.

74. Are you a bad person?

Maybe.

75. Are you a lover or a fighter?

Both.

76. What did you do on your last birthday?

Had dinner with husband and friends.

77. What is your favorite quote and why?

So it goes. It helps me let things go.

78. If your best friend died, what would you do?

I’d be crushed I guess.

79. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?

Human evolution?

80. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do?

I’d love to be by the lake one last time.

81. What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had?

Where do I start? I dream about apocalyptic end of the world pretty much every night.

82. Are you happier single or in a relationship?

Being single or in a relationship does not define my happiness.

83. Who were you in a past life?

A witch.

84. What is your happiest childhood memory?

Me and my dad watching western movies.

85. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

Yes.

86. Have you ever had an imaginary friend?

No, it I had an imaginary guardian angel when I was young.

87. What is the story behind one of your scars?

My scars are from self harming.

88. What is your ideal career?

The one I have.

89. Do you want kids?

Maybe, in the future.

90. Do you live with your parents?

No, I’m not 8.

91. Do you have any pets?

Not atm. I want a Rottweiler and a Sphynx tho.

92. How do you feel about PDA?

I’m ok with that, I’m very affectionate.

93. If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?

People.

94. Where would you like to live?

Iceland.

95. Where would you go on your dream vacation?

I’d love to visit Japan, Russia and Iceland.

96. Describe yourself in one word.

Smart.

97. Describe yourself in one sentence.

‘You seek traumas as the night seeks dreams’.

98. Where do you see yourself in five years?

I honestly have no idea, I guess still here, with a better house and still doing my things :)

99. What is your greatest accomplishment?

Overcoming my mental illnesses enough to function as a normal human being.

100. What is the meaning of life?

42.

[szopenhauer]

How would you describe yourself in three words? me, myself, I

How would others describe you in three words? depends 

Are you okay with long silences? Do they make you uncomfortable? depends

Do you believe in the paranormal?  some

How high is your pain tolerance? high

Do you bite your nails?: nah When you use stairs, do you usually hold the rail?: probably Have you ever eaten a snail?: nope Have you ever been stung by a bee?: I haven’t yet luckily  Are the best things in life really free?: no Have you ever planted a tree?: sure Are you wearing anything that’s gray?: not currently Are you more likely to text “Okay”, “OK” or just “K”?: ok or k or even kk but not okay When did you last check the time?: 20 minutes ago Do you keep spare change in a jar?: not in a jar Have you ever seen a deer (in real life)?: passing by (bus/train) Right now, what can you hear?: some noise from outside (neighbors’s music) and my parents’ voices Have you ever seen a bear (in real life)?: zoo Have you ever played Truth or Dare?: yup Are you wearing anything that’s blue?: not currently Have you ever eaten glue?: ewww, wtf Do you tend to buy clothes used or new?: used 

How often do you take painkillers? basically never Do you own any leather? fake only Do you party because you like it or because you’re supposed to? I don’t party

Do you have a therapist? not anymore Have you ever wanted to be a superhero? why not Ever used an online dating site? few Have you ever gotten a good grade in math class? yeah Have you ever seen a ghost? I think so Have you parents ever walked in on you having sex? sexting Do you think someone would ever want to marry you? maybe Do you like Thanksgiving? I’m against it

Have you ever thought you were drowning? as a kid

Do straight people make you uncomfortable? sometimes lmfao Would you ever dye your hair pink? doubt it Are you embarassed about your sex life or lack there of? sigh... Are you good at making conversation? dunno Do you go on a lot of dates? recently Are you a comic book geek? I don’t read comics

Did you just think of sex? why would I? Have you ever heard of The Cranberries? obvi

Have you ever lived in a mobile home?: I wanted to buy one

Have you ever had your bedroom in a basement?: nope

Do you think it would be cool to have a lion as a pet?: not really

In the house - shoes, socks, slippers or bare feet?: slippers or socks at least

Do you consider dogs inside or outside pets?: more outside

Have you ever had a crush on a friend’s parent?: nah

A teacher says she’s noticed you’ve looked sad, do you confide in her?: maybe

Do you like the sound of birds singing when you wake up, or is it annoying?: depends

If someone gave you a kitten, would you keep it?: doubtful

Do you like or hate to buy new shoes?: they’re expensive :(

Do you keep your phone on you at all times or forget it a lot: I keep it around often now as I have a gf but when I was single I didn’t 

Do you enjoy doing things outdoors?: some, at times

Which of your parents do you laugh more with?: dad

Where do you keep your phone at night?: on my desk

Do you feel comfortable asking your parents or grandparents for money?: I feel uncomfy :(

Five things you need to throw out: ugh...

Do you think you’re clever? I have my moments

Can you remember how you celebrated your 10th birthday? I don’t 

Do you sleep well most nights? not really, not recently

Is there music in your head right now? Sour candy by Lady Gaga

Did you ever play cowboys and indians when you were growing up? I did not

Would you like to become a dancer? meh

What colour is the bathroom of your house painted? green and purple - I was choosing and painting too :)

Do you like the Austin Powers films? no

Do you work better in a clean or messy environment? if it’s my mess then it doesn’t bother me 

Do you ever wear black lipstick? I did in the past, had goth phase :P

Which colour would you rather have your hair: pink, grey or green? green or grey

Don’t you just hate the sound of people eating? often

Would you rather play a good or an evil character in a play? good

Do most people annoy you? absolutely

When was the last time you just wanted to be left alone? kinda now, just go to sleep everyone omg 

Would you rather have a lazy day or a day of being really busy? lazy

Do you like the way that spoken French sounds? not really

Do people find you “cute”? mostly because I’m short

Don’t you hate it when your cell phone dies in the middle of a convo? yeah Have you ever had to cancel a bank account? yep Was the last conversation you had an argument? sigh... If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? maybe not today but soon Is the last person you kissed, going to be the next person you kiss? if I’m ever going to kiss somebody yet then her How long was your longest make out? short because she forgets to breathe XD Do you want to dance? not now for sure Are you mad at anyone right now? ugh... What was the last thing you found pointless? everything is? If you could have anyone as your roommate, who would you choose? dad Have you ever changed the prices of items at a store? no but I took price and put it on the same product in a different color because I wanted that specific one and someone teared it  Do you go for walks often? would say so Would your parents disown you if you got pregnant? my mom wants grandkids so maybe not How strange do people say you are? just weird, they don’t really say how much  Have you opened food at a grocery store & ate it without or before paying? nooo  Do you believe in the 10 second rule? I’ve only heard of the 5 second rule which I also don’t believe in - once it touched the ground - it’s trash Have you ever been in a limo? nope

You ever kissed someone at your house? not in my house

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow? hope not Are you in a good mood right now? ... Do you want someone to call you right now? no thx How artistic are you? kind of Is it possible that you’ll ever be a cat lady? dog lady if anything Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow? blergh Have you ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex everyday? luckily not Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone? I did Could you go a day not talking to the last person you kissed? I could but I won’t  Are you comfortable sharing drinks with your friends? sorry but no Have your parents ever questioned your virginity? my mom questioned it Do you find graveyards scary? nah When was the last time you made a pinky promise? recently Is there anything written on the shirt you’re wearing right now? there is Are you shorter or taller than most of your friends? shortest Honestly, do you double dip? might Anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad? more than one thing Have you ever kissed underwater? no, would never If you were paid 1 million dollars, would you kiss someone that was the same sex as you? I do it for free Who was the last person you cried in front of? my mother

Do you like sprinkles on your ice cream? meh

Can you say “Sally sells seashells by the sea shore” fast without messing up? I can  Is there anything plaid near you? What is it? not near Was today a bad hair day for you? obvi Do you have all teeth? still Have you ever been sent a postcard in the mail? From who? I even been part of this postcrossing website in the past Do you know how to do the moon walk? I know/can do it Which subject are you better at - science or history? was better at science but I forgot almost everything I learned in school by now Has anybody ever told you that you have a good singing voice? believe me or not but someone did even tho I think it was a lie Are you the youngest person living in your house? I am  Has anybody ever described you as a heart breaker? yep Are you wearing pajamas right now? not yet Has anybody ever told you that you talk too fast? mom When was the last time you attended a barbeque? I hate barbeques so never and don’t plan to What was your favorite thing to go on at the playground as a kid? swings? Do you know how much you weighed at birth? How much? I don’t remember

[shawnstoriesx]

Bear Pt 4

i rlly thought this would be the last part but it ain’t XD i would love your feedback !

YN woke up the next morning with a massive hangover. Her head was throbbing and she couldn’t remember anything that happened after she left the club last night, everything was just a haze. YN let out a deep groan as she felt another pulse through her head. She didn’t want to leave her bed and so she laid there, staring blankly at the ceiling above her, until her phone rang with a text notification from Brad.

“Taking you out to eat. Be there in 30.”

YN let out another deep sigh and swung her legs out from under the blankets. She lazily got up and looked at herself through the full size mirror resting against her wall. She was barefaced and wearing nothing but an extremely oversized t shirt over her bra. She must’ve been completely out of it last night to fall asleep in her bra but at least she remembered to wipe off her makeup. And she didn’t recognize the shirt as hers. She loved the smell though. It was comforting. Brad must have let me borrow it.

Just as Yn was about to open her bedroom door to head to the bathroom in the hallway, she heard Alexa and Shawn’s voices.

“Can you lower your voice Alexa? YN is still sleeping.” Shawn said sternly, still keeping his voice low.

“She’s all you ever talk about! YN this! YN that! You never talk about me! I’m you’re girlfriend aren’t I?”

“Yes you are. But YN needed me last night and-“

“Who’s your priority Shawn? I love you Shawn. She’s made it clear that she hates you. How many times do I have to tell you that? It was our two month anniversary and you left me to go over to her.” Alexa yelled, her voice was pitchy and high. YN couldn’t see what was happening on the other side but she knew that Alexa was probably crying.

There was a minute of tense silence. Unsure if the couple outside were just talking quietly, YN leaned toward the door, ears pressed against the wood. She heard Shawn release a deep sigh before he softly said “Alexa, baby, you know you’re my priority but -“

YN’s loud ringtone blast through the room. Gasping, YN ran towards it and seeing that it was Brad, she quickly pressed accept.

“Hey! Just calling to make sure you were up. You down to get food?”

YN could hear footsteps heading towards her room.

“Yeah Brad. How far away are you?”

“Just left my place. Be there soon.”

“Okay. See you.”

YN hung up the phone and took a deep breath before opening the door. Shawn stood on the other side, fists raised in the air as if he was about to knock.

“Are you going somewhere?” Shawn asked quietly.

YN gave a slow nod. “Brad wanted to get breakfast. I think he just wants to talk about last night. See if I’m alright.”

Shawn’s face fell. “And are you all right?” he asked.

“Yeah...just a bit shaken up so...”

A silence loomed over them before YN broke it by gently trying to push past him. “I have to get ready.”

“Yeah okay. See you.”

YN finished getting ready and took a seat at her couch to wait for Brad. Taking a look around, she noticed that Shawn wasn’t there anymore. That’s off. It was still pretty early in the morning so Shawn couldn’t have been here for that long.

Did he go somewhere with Alexa? YN listened intently. No it sounded like Alexa was on the phone with someone in her room.

YN’s phone rang with a text notification from Brad saying that he was here. She quickly got up and opened the door, yelling to Alexa, “I’m leaving!”

However, before she closed the door behind her, YN remembered Brad’s shirt that she slept in was still in her room. I should return it to him.

She turned back into the apartment, shut the door, and ran over to her room. Could’ve sworn I left it on my bed. YN’s room was a mess and it took her a while to find it. When she finally found the shirt hiding in between the bookshelves in her room, YN walked out of her room and back towards the front door.

She was about to tell Alexa that she was leaving again when...

“I can’t believe Shawn left me on our 2 month anniversary to go with her. She deserved what happened.” Alexa yelled into the phone.

YN gasped. Alexa must’ve thought she had left already. She stayed silent, thinking back to what Brad’s friends told her at the club. Maybe they were right.

“No you don’t understand, I told him that she didn’t want to be friends with him anymore but he still insisted I invite her out with us all those times. So I just got them to ignore each other so he didn’t find out that I didn’t actually invite her. There’s no way he likes her.”

There was a slight pause as the person on the other end said something.

“It worked perfectly. He loves me. I’m sure of it. I just pretended to like the same dorky things he did.” Alexa responded before giving a shallow chuckle. “He’s a total dork but he’s cute. Might stick around with him a little longer, until I find another one.”

YN was speechless. Everything she had heard about Alexa was true. Alexa was just messing with Shawn and her’s friendship. She needed to get out of there.

YN quickly opened the door, causing it to creak loudly. Fuck.

“YN? Did you come back already?” Alexa yelled from her room in a sickly sweet voice.

“Uh yeah. Forgot something.” YN stuttered. “Bye Alexa.”

She raced out of the apartment and jumped into Brad’s car, stunned in silence.

“Are you okay YN?” Brad said as he glanced over her. “Look I wasn’t even able to sleep at all last night at your place. Felt so guilty that that happened to you. Should we take you somewhere? A therapist, a doctor-“

“No it’s fine. Let’s just eat.” YN said tersely. In all honesty, what happened last night was the last thing on her mind. Her head was still processing what she had heard Alexa say. Alexa was just playing with Shawn’s feelings. Alexa had split up their friendship.

The two sat the remainder of the drive in silence. YN was staring blankly forward while Brad’s worried eyes were constantly darting back and forth from the road to YN.

After they sat down at the diner for breakfast and finished ordering, Brad grasped YN’s hands from across the table.

“YN I can tell something’s not right. Talk to me please. You’re scaring me.” Brad said sincerely.

YN took a deep breath before telling Brad about what his friends had told her and about what she overheard Alexa saying.

“Well shit.” Brad exhaled, removing his hands from where they were joined with hers and nervously scratching at the back of his neck. “What should we do?”

YN let out a disappointed sigh. She really didn’t know what to do. It was obvious that Shawn really loved Alexa, heck he had said just this morning that Alexa was his priority. YN didn’t want to break his heart but she couldn’t stand the idea of Alexa playing him like that.

“We have to tell Shawn what she’s really like.” she said firmly.

After they had finished eating, YN unblocked Shawn’s number and texted him:

“Shawn, I really need to talk to you about something. Can we meet at the boba place in an hour?”

After a couple minutes he responded, “Fine.”

An hour later, YN and Brad were seated at a table in the boba shop as they waited for Shawn to arrive. YN was nervous. This was the same exact place she had her last real conversation with Shawn and all the memories of that day came rushing back, mixed in with the fact that she was about to deliver some hard news to Shawn.

Brad could tell that YN was nervous and took her hands into his, giving them a comforting squeeze.

A cough brought them to attention and the two looked up to see Shawn standing at the edge of the table already with a cold expression on his face.

“Hey man.” Brad greeted cheerfully but Shawn just ignored him and sat down, focusing his harsh gaze on YN only.

“You had to bring him along to tell me this huh. Couldn’t do it by yourself?” Shawn said, his voice laced with venom.

Huh. YN looked up at Brad. She had asked him to come as moral support but she guesses she didn’t really need him. “Um you can leave Brad. I got this.”

Brad nodded and told her that he’d be waiting in his car. YN returned her attention to Shawn and was caught off guard by the anger she found in his eyes.

“So I wanted to talk to you about-“ YN started before Shawn cut her off.

“Save it YN. I already know what you’re going to say.” he said menacingly.

“You do?” A sigh of relief came over YN. At least she wasn’t the one to break the bad news to Shawn.

“Yeah. I didn’t believe it at first. We’ve known each other for long I didn’t think anything like what we had could be replaced so easily but I guess not.”

YN’s heart was crushed. Shawn must’ve really loved Alexa. She reached her hands out to give him a comforting squeeze but he pushed her hands away, continuing his words.

“After Alexa called me this morning to tell me that Brad told you to stop talking to me because he was jealous I thought she was just making another one of her cruel jokes.”

Wait what?

“But after I got your text, that basically confirmed it. Thanks for being upfront about it this time and giving me a heads up instead of ghosting me all those other times. Bye YN.” Shawn got up to leave but YN grabbed his arms, stopping him before he left the table.

“No wait Shawn you’ve got it all wrong. Alexa is lying to you.” YN blurted out.

“For fuck’s sake YN.” he said harshly. “Quit passing the blame on other people. You blame me for not spending time with you because of Alexa when you’re the one who doesn’t come to hang out anymore because of your new boyfriend.” YN tried to cut in but Shawn’s voice overpowered hers. “You think I don’t notice how all your attention is for him now. Hell, you’ve replaced me YN.”

“No. Shawn, let me explain.” YN pleaded standing up. As she stood up, she knocked over her purse, spilling its contents. She quickly crouched down to put everything back in. Shawn leaned down to pick up the t shirt. She’d completely forgotten that she grabbed it this morning.

He held the shirt out to her and YN looked up to thank him but her mouth went dry. Shawn was crying. His eyes were red and his cheeks were puffy.

“You can keep my shirt. Maybe Bear can fit it. Let’s just pretend we never met.” his voice cracked before he walked out of the shop.

YN stayed frozen on the ground, stunned by what had just happened. She then ran after him, swiftly dodging the other patrons in the way. When she made it onto the street, her vision was so blurry from the tears that were building up in her eyes that she couldn’t pinpoint where Shawn was. YN let out a frustrated cry. She had to explain the truth to Shawn. She had to fix it.

She quickly dialed his number but she was stuck on the dial tone. She tried to text him but the messages weren’t going through. Shawn blocked her.

YN dejectedly walked to Brad’s car, hugging Shawn’s shirt to her chest. The comforting smell enveloped her and her heart broke even more.

“What’s wrong?” Brad asked as she buckled herself in.

Everything

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[pepitadinamita]

Hi there, Tumblr! It’s been a while.

A couple of months ago Tumblr notified me that my account was six years old already. Makes sense. I signed up on this blue hellhole during the summer of 2013, in between the first and second rounds of the last college exams I’d take in my entire life (I’m not counting the ones I underwent during my botched attempt at a master’s degree, boy was that a mistake). I remember my younger self browsing through fandom stuff (I was such an Benedict Cumberbatch stan back then, embarrassing XD) as a way to relax/procrastinate from studying, saving the creation of an account as a post-exams gift for myself. And for several years, this account was my happy place.

I wasn’t happy in real life, I know that now. My family has always been… questionable. If you follow me you know that. Getting a college degree that did nothing for me and that I never really wanted just took away the only meaning my life had ever had and projected me into nothingness. Those were the worst years of my life. I dragged myself from bed to the goddamned master’s degree, then back to bed. I didn’t want it. I had nothing. No motivation, no hope. I had anxiety crisis, I self-harmed, I cried a lot. I abandoned the master’s, there was a ruckus at home. All those times I came to Tumblr to disconnect. I read fanfiction and poetry, I educated myself in social issues, I laughed at shitposts. Once I made a list of things that made me happy and being here was on it. I know terrible things can happen here, as in any social media. As in any social situation, really. But for me it always was a good place. A hideaway.

Fortunately, I was lucky enough to be able to afford a good therapist. I started treating myself and searching for a job, and little by little things started to get better. I started making my own money, I learned how to establish boundaries at home, and last year a miracle happened: I was offered the opportunity to live in an apartment that belonged to my family (that’s my privilege acting again, I know. I am very lucky). And here I am.

I’m a completely different person now. I signed up in here when I was a depressed, exhausted and aimless student who only found solace in consuming media and escaping reality. Today I am closing on my thirtieth birthday, counting my first silver hairs and feeling healthier and more fulfilled I’ve ever felt. I am a writer. I’ll say that again: I AM A WRITER. I’ve always written, but I started doing it with enthusiasm again around 2017, and somehow today I’ve published several short stories, carved a small name within the indie Spanish writing community, and am currently working in a novel and two poetry collections a couple of tiny publishing houses have interest in. You can search for me. MJ Ceruti. That’s my name. That’s what I sign with. I am a writer.

I have a home. I have a loving partner. I have a cat. I HAVE A CAT, GODDAMMIT. I’m so fucking happy. Of course things haven’t been perfect; there’s always conflict and difficulties. But I’m not in pain anymore. I, finally, feel like a complete human being. And, for the first time in my life, I look to the future with hope and excitement. The best is yet to come. I know.

This is not me leaving Tumblr, but it’s evident to anyone that used to follow me that nowadays I spend next to no time here. When I’m not working I’m writing, promoting my work in Twitter (it’s @MJCeruti), doing things that bring me solace or just spending time with the people (and cat) I love. And I like it that way. I just wanted to leave this here because if things keep on going this way and I end up fading from Tumblr, I don’t want to just vanish like a ghost. This was a special place for me, a place were I felt safe, where I felt intensely, where I became an adult. And I’ll always hold it dear because of that, no matter what.

So, to whoever matters: I’m ok. I’m happy. I made it.

I fucking made it.

[mahvaladara]

Shah talks Psi - The beneficial effects of giving your kid nightmares

You know how people say children shouldn’t see certain shows because it’ll give them nightmares?

I only partially agree and disagree of this statement.

As a therapist I stand my ground that children SHOULD be allowed to have nightmares. 

NIGHTMARES. Not night terrors, there’s a difference. A nightmare is a concrete dream the person remembers and can be discussed and deconstructed with the child. A night terror is a constant, insidious and persistent nightmare that the child may or may not remember, though most often the latter and therefore can not be broken down.

What do I mean with deconstruct a nightmare? Read on.

As a child, I loved movies. I grew up with Stallone, Van Dame, Seagal, Chuck Norris, Bruce Lee, Schwarzenegger and so on. I also grew up with the old school gory horror movies.

Three shows that I love but gave me nightmares as a child are, without a doubt, Robocop, Alien the 8th Passenger and yes, Jurassic Park. Now I am not saying you should let your child watch those movies. Robocop, especially the acid scene, is not a movie a kid should watch. HOWEVER, neither of those movies are that bad...

Most of today’s horrors movies aren’t that bad. I mean, you shouldn’t let your kid watch the Saw franchise, what form of sick fuck are you? But Anabelle? Pffft. Ouija (if anything maybe the kid grows to avoid those toys, like... for fuck sake mate!)? Sure. Aliens? Yup. Predator? That’s more of an action flick. Let’s see... 

The Conjuring scares me, and it will scare you kid shitless. It will give them nightmares for weeks. They are going to start locking their bloody closets at night XD. The Bye Bye Man, the Others, Us. Get out. 

Troll: But that’s going to give my kid nightmares!

Yes. And thank god it does. It means your kid’s brain is working correctly.

When it’s night terrors and constant everyday nightmares, then it is bad, something is failing. Either you have not broken down the “nightmare” correctly or something else entirely is scaring your kid. 

My mother used to think my night terrors were caused by movies before she found out I was actually terrified of school because of my teacher’s physical abuse towards me. She removed the movies from my life, but the night terrors persisted all the way until I left that school (hope that teacher burns in hell).

A child having a nightmare every now and then it’s actually beneficial for them.

Nightmares have a very important role in emotional organization, emotional management and brain development. Nightmares are basically dreams, but dreams that are organizing negative concepts. Dreams that are organizing the concept of ghosts, death, blood, the concept of fear, anger. But also, and this is important, the concept of fiction, of security and above all, DISBELIEF. 

It is okay for a child to EVERY NOW AND THEN watch a horror movie. A horror movie with a plot and preferably a good ending. A good resolution to the horror movie, like they kill or destroy the demon, is very important. Why? Closure. It tells the child, this terrifying thing existed in fiction and could be defeated. 

But, the child must not watch the movie alone. It is important the parent is with the child, it can be at night, but the parent must be with the child. Because what’s going to happen is that that kid is going to ask questions, questions the parent must answer, question the parent must deconstruct. And at night, that kid is going to wake up crying that there’s the Conjuring Witch inside their closet. 

What must the parent do at this point?

Deconstruct.

Basically the parent must break down the child’s fear, explain the notion of fiction, look for the child’s fear, show it is not real, or offer a solution. Lock the closet door, turn on the nightlight, offer to sleep with them. These are ways to break the fear, and offer security. 

Troll: But isn’t it best to avoid this?

No. It isn’t. Because a child who does not have nightmares has a much worse skill at managing negative emotions. And a child who does not have nightmares, has night terrors. Because, as the brain is being literally prevented from organizing these negative emotions, it goes a-wire and doesn’t know what the fuck it is supposed to do.

Children who don’t have nightmares, are more prone to night terror, to emotional management dificulties, to outbursts and tantrums.

Nightmares helps them organize in a safe environment negative emotions, such as fear, anger and frustration. And it is very important a child know how to act with fearful things. 

I advise you watch Black Mirror episode “Arkangel”, I think it shows perfectly the effects of painting the world pink for children and not allowing them to experience and organize their bad dreams, their bad emotions.

So. What should you do?

There’s a horror movie on TV or Netflix. Google the plot. Watch the movie on your own, and then make your own judgement if it’s really that bad.

Would I let my kid watch Alien, the 8th Passenger? I’d let them watch the entire franchise actually. Would I let them watch Saw? Nope. The Conjuring? The Walking Dead? Evil Dead? Yes. Sinister? Drag me to Hell? Nope.

Depends on your own suspension of disbelief. How real is this fear? And above all, does it have a good ending? 

Horror movies with good endings? A-okay.

Gorefests, “bedisturbed” movies, and bad endings. Nope.

Basically use your common sense. You’re not about to watch the Human Centepide with your mother. But an X-Files marathon is awesome.

Last, but not least. It is important that, while the kid is watching and even if he has nightmares you explain to a child the notion of Fiction.

Children don’t have the capability of looking at a movie and seeing that as fiction, to them, those movies are real. All shows are real, when I was five I thought Lara Croft was a real woman. After I realized what was shown in games wasn’t real, I thought she was inspired on a real person, and eventually I was taught the notion of fictional characters.

Now, children cannot look at a movie and flat out realize nothing of that is real. The adult must explain that the Alien in the movies is a guy in a suit that happens to have very elongated arms. 

Basically.

Nightmares are necessary evils for our emotional development.

And use your common sense.

Someone once told me: 

“Raise your child the best you can, for regardless of what you do, you’ll be doing it wrong.”

So, my advice is do the best you can and don’t be so worried of shielding your child from all the dangers of Media. Children are not idiots, and if you sit down with your child and explain to them what they just watched or are about to, they themselves, will eventually form their own opinions and decisions about what they want to watch or not. 

So, rest assured that your kid accidentally watching Vin Diesal fly over a truck in a car, or Steven Seagal breaking a guy’s arm, or Sam and Dean being ragdolled by a demon, is not going to “traumatize” them. It might give them nightmares, but they will, most likely, be fine.

Fiction is different from reality and that is something important for them to understand.

This was Shah. I am done here.

[taibu]

Tagged by @hitodama89

Well, kind of. She said that anyone who wants to can answer these, and I really liked there questions so here we go!

This will he hella long!!

1. What is your favorite Pokémon and why?

Ninetales! Mostly due to it’s design. Even as a kid, I thought that Ninetales was the prettiest pokemon ever! The sleek form, the golden fur, the ruby-red eyes~ When I actually got into the games I was little disappointed that it’s move-pool was... kind of garbage. But it’s still my fav <3

2. Did you follow the recent E3? If so, what game made you most excited?

There were few games that caught my interest, including: The new Animal Crossing, Trials of Mana, Bloodlines 2 (still gotta play the first one tho lul), and  Way to the Woods. But I suppose I’m most excited for the new Pokemon XD

3. Is there some childhood cartoon that you feel really shaped you in some way? What is it?

It’s not really a cartoon, but it has been part of my childhood so thurley that I have to mention it: Ti-Ti Nalle. My love for music, dancing, singing and even techno can be blamed on the white teddy-bear.

4. Name one food/dish you wish you could prepare perfectly.

Well, I’m pretty ok with my own cooking-skills for the few things I can actually make, but one I wish I knew how to prepare is Meatloaf. I love meatloaf, but we don’t have it very often since no-one else in the family is really into it, so it’s a rare treat.

5. What is a perfect outdoors temperature for you?

About 18+ with a slight cool breeze (not hard enough to blow your hair out, but hard enough to cool you down when you’re on a walk or working in the garden)

6. Do you feel like your horoscope is a good fit for you?

Let’s take a look at what a random site says about Pisces...

“The zodiac's fish is ruled by the planet Neptune, named after the Roman god of the sea and all watery depths, and is like the magician of the solar system - representing illusion, imagination, creativity and bewitchment. Neptune holds sway over a mixed bag of human activity e.g. drama, dance, poetry, addiction, hypnosis, institutions and poison. Crumbs, Pisces, you've got a LOT of hobbyist options there...”

Yup, that checks out so far.

“ Everyone loves having a Pisces pal because it's like having your own personal therapist. They just "get" how you feel, never judge, listen endlessly. They are a deep well of human emotion and act like they've seen it all before. Nothing shocks them. That said, they often end up crying more than you. Always tears with Pisceans. Always. The world is a cruel place for them. “

Pretty much, yeah.

“ Like moths to a flame, Pisces all have an interest in the spiritual, mystical, even occult, side of life. And, lucky them, they usually have a little psychic twinkle in-built at birth (maybe that's where their great empathy emerges from). Your dad will always describe your Pisces pal as "the quirky one". “

Mmm-hm.

“ Blessed with a natural-born empathy, interest in human nature, creativity and massive imagination, Pisceans are nearly always drawn towards the arts in some way. The double edge of their ability to create new realms is that they can have trouble living in the real world and may create illusions to protect themselves from it. “

Uh-huh.

“Anything water-related. Being in or near water truly makes them happy: swimming, sailing, fishing, surfing, even just walking on the beach. Bliss.Dancing. Neptune rules dance! Pisceans, physically, often have very slinky bodies which seem to slip and glide along. Hypnotic.Being witchy. This may manifest as simply binge-watching the Chilling Adventures of Sabrina a lot, or they may actually be the one giving you tarot readings, wafting sage over your bed and advising on crystals.Writing. Drawn to self expression which they alone can control (vs having to navigate the rough'n'tumble of conversation!) Pisceans always have a lot of observations and insights to share, they are poetic and lyrical too.“

Yup. I’mma one emotional-artistic-ghost-hunting fish. And I ain’t even exaggerating. 

7. You can create a new “— Awareness Day”; what will you choose to be the topic of it?

I’m not sure if this exists already, but something that has something to do with unknown artists, singers, writers, what have you. Kind of like the whole portfolio-thing on Twitter, but bigger artists re-tweeting or sharing lesser known people they like.

8. Which was more fun to you as a child, Christmas or your birthday? Why?

Birthday, by far! Christmas was always so stressful, having to hang out with our grandparents and wait for the Santa Claus every year. And I’m not a fan of Christmas-food. So birthdays were always my favorites! I got to eat cake and play with my friends (because I actually had some back then lul)!

9. You learn to talk to animals, but only to one species. What species will you choose?

Hedgehogs! So that I could help them be more comfortable while living under our shed (we have a pair living there, but so far, no babies have appeared) and potentially help them become a healthier species. Plus I wanna teach them how to swear.

10. What is your favorite shirt like?

11. You can ask one question from the universe and get an absolute truth about it as an answer; what will you ask?

Does God actually exist, and if so, what his beliefs actually are, and if not, is any other religion the absolute complete truth? I know that's basically 3 questions but eh. I’m curious. 

My questions:

1. What is the most golden memory of your childhood?

2. If you have had pets in the past, which one of them you miss the most?

3. Favorite Pokemon-game? If you don’t play Pokemon, which interests you the most?

4. Do you believe in ghosts?

5. Tea or coffee? 

6. What kind of tea/coffee you like the best?

7. You are turned into your favorite animal for a week. How fucked are you?

8. Marriage-kids-and-a-dog or Single-and-seven-cats? Prefered, that is?

9. A literal Phoenix crashes into your yard and asks for your help to be able to be born again. Will you help it, even if you’d have to build a freaking bonfire on your yard? (Yeah I thought about Moomins when writing this lul)

10. Funniest meme right now? 

No tagging, just do this if you feel like it!

[white-queen-lacus]

An interesting frame

Mhhh... this picture is making me think. I didn’t pay attention to this frame before, but the fact that there is a so vivid opposition in this image is very interesting (apart from making me recall of a certain frame in PP2 opening XD).

We have Jonas, who still is in the dark, symbolizing his status at the moment, his mind still confused by the years he spent in a coma, obsessively searching for the reason why he can remember having spent time with Cagliostro, during his “ghost” years. He desperately wants to know why he and the dead commissioner are connected to each other, to the point of asking directly to his presumed shooter, Rambelli.  From the other side, there is Leo, standing in the light. I guess it means the fact that Leo remembers Jonas, of him being his mentor in the limbo before the afterlife but he knows anything else of the mysterious man.

Another interesting point is that the two of them are standing head by head irremediably separated by death. The fact that they are reversed can be an allusion to death too. Jonas woke up from the coma, putting an end to his ghost state, but Leo is permanently dead, so he can only watch life going on without him (even if he can still manage to interact with reality with his powers).  Also, both of them are quite similar: thick hair and thick beard, a common style between them (even though in his younger years Jonas only had wavy thick hair). Jonas is seen with a lightning cigarette, and we know that Leo used to smoke when he was alive too.

I wonder if these parallels in the frame concretely allude to the fact that Jonas in really Leo’s father. It’s stated that ghosts are attracted by people who are bonded to them in life. During Leo’s funeral, Jonas appears and there is an instantaneous feeling between them, but he’s starting to recalling this feeling now. The therapist said that Jonas feels an attachment to Cagliostro because they share a similar fate: Rambelli shoot both of them, but while Leo died, Jonas survived. I guess that since next episode we’ll finally be getting the revelation about them, the therapist is wrong. I still believe that Jonas is Leo’s biological father, but he wasn’t aware of this. I have this theory, based on the last episode, that Silvia could actually be the daughter of a Phoenix member (the head, maybe), but she didn’t know anything of the children’s trafficking the sect performed in the past. Maybe she didn’t know anything at first, but when she became pregnant something had occurred and she was separated from Jonas. The child born from them was taken away (from the captain/now priest of the Phoenix ship maybe?) and he was given to the family group (Cagliostro anyone? I guess that the never adopted children from the family group were given that surname in order to link them to the Count of Cagliostro/sect). 

Ooooor, assuming that Jonas had known of his child but he still can’t remember because of his trauma, what if at a certain point both of them (along with Rambelli) tried to save a young Leo from the Phoenix (I guess he was fated to be killed too) but they failed?  Also, there is something else that is making me think... il the sect is so obsessed with the Count of Cagliostro, could it be that they want the little Vanessa (Leo’s daughter) because she is a Cagliostro too? Aaaaaaah!! I can’t wait for next week!!!!!!!!!!

[askblueberrymuffin]

REALLY LONG CHARACTER SURVEY.

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TAGGED. @vertebralheights sorta? TAGGING. I dunno, do what u want

BASICS.

FULL NAME: Sans Gaster

NICKNAME:  Blueberry, Muffin, Blue

AGE: 23

BIRTHDAY: July 1st, 20XX

ETHNIC GROUP: Skeleton/Shadow Monster

NATIONALITY: Underground??

LANGUAGE(S): English, Wingdings(?)

SEXUAL ORIENTATION: Asexual

ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: Panromantic

RELATIONSHIP STATUS:  Forever alone Single

CLASS: Middle class? Maybe upper middle when their mom was around?

HOMETOWN / AREA: Snowdin

CURRENT HOME: Still Snowdin, same house and everything

PROFESSION: Sentry, but he’ll likely pursue higher education soon

PHYSICAL.

HAIR: Skeleton?

EYES: Usually cerulean blue.

NOSE:  Nope

FACE:  Boney (har har)

LIPS:  Still skeleton

COMPLEXION: Guess what? Skeleton

WEIGHT:  Like, 9 lbs.

BUILD: Bony boi

FEATURES:  Solid shadow? In skull and ribcage? Also tiny nubby tail

ALLERGIES: Straight up a magic skeleton

USUAL HAIRSTYLE: No?

USUAL FACE LOOK: A bright smile

USUAL CLOTHING: So many sweaters. Too many sweaters. And baggy pants. And cerulean boots. Of course all topped off with his scarf, tied as a bandana.

PSYCHOLOGY.

FEAR(S): His brothers dying, Cake killing himself(again), Cake self harming(more), being abandoned, hurting others, using others, being alone, fire, being burned, the kitchen, ice picks, chisels, sledge hammers, lighters, people getting hurt because of him, people dying because of him-- *SLAPS ROOF OF SANS* THIS BAD BOI CAN FIT SO MANY FEARS and he hides them all so they never get any better, someone help him oh my god--

ASPIRATION(S) : He wants to help others however he can. He also would really like to be come a scientist, but he puts that aside for the former

POSITIVE TRAITS: Excitable, loving, affectionate, intelligent, optimistic, resourceful, adaptable, perseverance, determination, overwhelming kindness and forgiveness

NEGATIVE TRAITS: Depressed, fakes many emotions, fakes many situations, fakes his persona, shoves his own feelings aside constantly, takes all the blame, always takes the fall, forgives instantly, never blames anyone, too trusting, can be absent minded, easily distracted, never honest about his own feelings to other or to himself, won’t tell people when they’re hurting him, will do almost anything you tell him, he’s entirely too codependent, his entire life revolves around his brothers, if you take that away he doesn’t know who he is anymore, he’s content now but if he were to ever not be, that is a very, very steep slope with no coming back. Get this baby a therapist, someone.

ZODIAC: A hecking crab Cancer

TEMPERAMENT: He only gets upset when bad stuff happens to others or they talk bad about themselves. Otherwise you could literally stab him and-- WAIT people literally did torture him and he was not at all upset! Ahhh--

SOUL TYPE(S):  Monster Soul?

ANIMALS:  Probably some kind of dog. He’d be the goodest good boy.

VICE  HABIT(S): He stress bakes and stress cleans. Don’t take that for innocence as he’s tried other things. A lot of other things. But he has 1 HP, hates the choking feel of smoke and can’t get drunk if his life depended on it. ...Perhaps it isn’t so innocent though, looking at all he does.

FAITH: Who needs gods when you’re a massive science nerd

GHOSTS?: Yes?

AFTERLIFE?: He believes there is none. A part of him hopes he is wrong.

REINCARNATION?: He’s a science nerd, he hasn’t put much thought into this stuff.

ALIENS?: He believes with the vastness of the universe, likely? He wants to meet one.

POLITICAL ALIGNMENT: Heavy shrugging? He only wishes the Queen were more open.

ECONOMIC  PREFERENCE: None in particular

SOCIOPOLITICAL POSITION: He’s content where things are.

EDUCATION LEVEL: High school. He hopes to change this now that they actually have money--

FAMILY.

FATHER: Wingdings Gaster

MOTHER: D̵̀́͟͜r̶̶̶̛̕.̴̀ ̷̡̨̢P̶̧e̢̡̕n̷̷̨̧u̴̶m̡̛͘͠͠b̧͞͠r̴̷̨͞ą̧̛͘ ̸̨G̴̡͜͜͠a̵͜s̢̀͜t̢e͠҉̕͟r̷͏̢̢̀

SIBLINGS: Papyrus ‘Cake’ Gaster (younger), Papyrus ‘Rex’ (older)

EXTENDED FAMILY: Sakura Shalie (niece), Martin Magnus (nephew)

NAME MEANING(S): I dunno, ask their mom OH WAIT-- (imsorry)

HISTORICAL CONNECTION?: His mom was the royal scientist, while his dad killed the human who possessed the soul of integrity. Perhaps in certain timelines caused by a certain human, he may have been more historically important (winkwinknudgenudge)

FAVORITES.

BOOK: Pffff-- Textbooks, old scientific studies, non-fiction, history texts, books on space, really just picture anything nerdy. He loves it. Oh yeah, and sci-fi.

MOVIE: The first Star Wars film, he will fight

5 SONGS: Dollhouse, Sleeping Powder, More Than Words, Squid Melody [Blue Version], Cut My Hair

DEITY: Can I just put Phil Swift here? I’m doing it.

HOLIDAY: Christmas

MONTH:  July. Birthday time!

SEASON: Indifferent. They all seem the same to him.

PLACE: Quiet places no one else can reach

WEATHER: Storms. Rain storms on the surface.

SOUND: Laughter

SCENT(S):  Laundry, baking, cooking

TASTE(S): He loves tomatoes? In juice, sandwiches, food in general? Yeah.

FEEL(S):  Warm, soft, physical contact with other living beings.

ANIMAL(S): He loves dogs? All dogs. So many dogs. He wants to pet them all. All dogs.

NUMBER: 9 now. XD

COLORS: He likes orange and blue. He says his favourite colours are his dad’s eyes. Which sounds adorable tbh--

EXTRA.

TALENTS: He’s a little smarty pants with a good memory. Helpful for science, helpful for reloads. He’s decent at cooking and is much, much to physically strong for his 1 HP?? He also has quite the great handle on his magic. Fighting him isn’t fun, at all. He’s only been fairly beaten once. He’s empathetic, great at reading people and a masterful deceiver. He could be a super villain with his manipulation abilities tbh, but he just hates the idea of using people.

BAD AT:  He acts before he thinks. He switches from topic to topic and overpowers conversation. He’s quick to defend others and gets himself hurt like this more often than not, and mentally he’s an absolute wreck. He can be overbearing and clingy though, especially to those close to him. The more paranoid he becomes, the more annoying he seems in these ways.

HOBBIES: Reading, cooking, cleaning. He’s starting to get back into actual hobbies like reading with Rex around. He used to just not have them.

TROPES:  He is about the best supporting ally and mom friend one can be. His best quality is being able to lift people up high. He however, cannot do this to himself.

AESTHETIC TAGS:  #space , #baking

GPOY  QUOTES: ((I don’t know what this is--))

FC INFO.

MAIN  FC(S): No

ALT FC(S): Nope

OLDER FC(S): Nuh-uh

YOUNGER  FC(S): Nadda

VOICE CLAIM(S): ((I have no idea?? The closest would be Cryaotic but I honestly have no idea the specifics))

GENDERBENT FC(S): Nah

MUN QUESTIONS.

Q1: if you could write your character your way in their own movie, what would it be called, what style would it be filmed in, and what would it be about?:  If I were to write it??? It would turn into something psychological or horror related. Blue would fit wonderfully in a deconstruction of the human(or i guess skeleton??) mind. Hopefully it’d be about him seeming alright but being an absolute mess and managing to realize there is indeed a problem and work through his issues with friends, family and some professional help. That’d be lovely.

Q2: what would their soundtrack / score sound like?:  He listens to anything catchy, though likes chiptune and electronica. He’d probably make his own soundtrack out of other video game soundtracks though, he’s a doofus.

Q3: why did you start writing this character?: I... Don’t know?? Huh. Guess I did a little bit about... Three years back? I didn’t do a whole lot with him, but that’s around when he met his niece and nephew. Hm.

Q4: what first attracted you to this character?:  Papyrus is my favourite undertale character. Sans is my second favourite. Mash them together and what do you get? A cool science boy! A sad cool science boy that covers his pain with laughter and smiles. Someone help him.

Q5: describe the biggest thing you dislike about your muse: He won’t let anyone in, in any way that matters. He’s affectionate to everyone and it would be so easy to use and abuse him. He so strong in some areas and so weak in others. His whole life is his brothers and I’m often lost as to what I should make him do as he doesn’t keep hobbies really due to being busy. He never sleeps, works himself to exhaustion and picks everyone up despite being hurt himself. He thinks he knows what he is but he’s wrong. He thinks he’s fine but he’s not. He denies these problems in himself so hard that even he’s deceived by his act. It’s frustrating in a way even if it is interesting? As a writer I want to break him apart and crush him but as a person I want someone, anyone to finally see through this and HELP him. But no matter the hints I give or things I mention, no one has tried. I suppose he just hides it too well. Ahh...

Q6: what do you have in common with your muse?: Super depressed! Uh-- Ha, put up a mask. Hide pain with jokes. Try to see the silver lining in situations. Loooove space. And science. Psychology’s a huge yes.

Q8: what characters does your muse have interesting interactions with?: Citrus is always neat. Rex and him also have an extremely interesting dynamic. Fluff and him are adorable and fun, and I want so much more of them. Sakura’s is hilarious because she’s literally a god in her multiverse and she’s just accepted him as being able to break all laws of space and time

Q9: what gives you inspiration to write your muse?:  The interactions and dynamics he creates with other characters as well as the unique story and plot aspects that can be created!

Q10: how long did this take you to complete?:  At least two hours. Maybe longer. Oh jeez--

[kusunogatari-a]

[ SasuHinaMonth Day Eleven: Demon/Angel AU ] [ @sasuhinamonth ] [ Uchiha Sasuke, Hyūga Hinata ] [ SasuHina, death mention ] [ Verse: Watching Wings of White ]

He’s never been one for religion.

Even when the diagnosis comes back.

His father defaults to his rigid silence. His mother starts to murmur prayers. But his brother, the one whose life now hangs on a thread...does neither.

Still he smiles.

But Sasuke…

He rebels against the news. Refuses to accept it. Can’t stand to see his brother so calm, so...resigned! “How can you just sit there and do nothing?!”

“...because there is nothing left to do.”

No...no!

He skips school. Doesn’t go for a week. The administration calls, but his mother insists he’s too unstable to go - begs for a little more time. Apologizes, explains, all within earshot as he seethes.

On a Friday, he sneaks out of the house. Skulks through the dark neighborhood, heading toward an abandoned building several blocks away. He’s been tearing it apart from the inside out, venting his anger and grief through destruction that no one will notice.

So deep is he in his rage, he doesn’t notice the oncoming car. Not until headlights round the corner, and he looks up like a doe, frozen and staring.

...the next thing he knows, he lands hard on his backside, the vehicle not even slowing down. But...how did he…? What -? Who -?

“You really need to be more careful!”

Scrambling to his feet, Sasuke whips his head around, trying to find the source of the voice. “Who...who’s there? What -?”

Another turn puts him face to face with a set of pale eyes that seem to glow in the darkness. With a yelp, he falls once more, scrambling to back away with a heavy chest and drumming heart.

“You’re so clumsy…! Here, let me help you…” Hands reach, tucking under his armpits and lifting him as though he were a feather. Too shocked to refuse, Sasuke does little more than stare as the hovering figure alights atop the grass like a moth. Feathered wings ruffle to fold at her back, hands clasped before her.

“...you…?”

“Sorry...I wanted to introduce myself in a less...spectacular way, but I couldn’t let you get hit by a car, now could I?” She smiles, still looking at him with eyes like moons. “...you can call me Hinata. I’ve been assigned as your guardian angel.”

Silence.

“...okay. That car actually hit me. I’m comatose, and imagining things. Cuz this is stupid.” Refusing to accept what he sees, Sasuke lifts his hands in a gesture of defeat. “All Mom’s praying must be getting to my head. This is all just a load of bullshit.”

“Please, mind your language!”

“Piss off, lady - if I’m gonna be stuck in a coma, the last thing I want is company.” Still, he can’t help but startle as she flutters back in front of him, a stern look on her face.

“You are not comatose, Sasuke. This is real. Your mother has been awfully worried about you, and her prayers have caught our attention. I’m here to help you, until your grieving for your brother comes to an end.”

“...why not go help my brother, instead? I don’t give a shit about myself!” Dark eyes glare at her, clearly unamused. “...if it makes you happy, sure. I’ll play along. But angels aren’t real. Miracles aren’t real. You aren’t real.”

“I have a name.”

Sasuke sighs, head bowing. “...what is it?”

“I told you: Hinata. As for why I’m with you and not your brother...he’s already been assigned an angelic companion.”

That gets him to pause. “...are they...is he gonna live?”

“She’s doing everything she can. Please, trust me. But...you’re struggling too, Sasuke. And I’m here to help you.”

“...I don't need your help. I don't want it, either! Look, this…!” He cuts off with a curt sigh. “...I’m losing my mind. Or I’m dead. Or unconscious on the sidewalk. This can’t be -!”

A palm presses to his chest, and words cut to silence. A strange...warmth? blooms from where the angel touches him. Unbidden, tears flow from his eyes as his body reacts to her energy.

“...I know you do not believe,” she murmurs. “Your mother was worried your lack of faith would deter us. But we love all humans, regardless of their faith in us. And you need us. You’ve taken this burden on your shoulders alone, and pushed away all others. I’m your last chance for help, Sasuke. Please...don’t push me away, too.”

Staring at her with wide, uncensored eyes, Sasuke finds himself unable to look away. Her expression is a strange mix of sympathy, sadness...and an intensity that makes him feel so small.

And then...he realizes...she looks...familiar.

“...what...did you say your name was?”

“Hinata.” Seeing his recognition, it’s her turn to sigh. “...I knew you once, when you were very small. As was I. But...when I was seven, my mother and I were killed in a car accident. And I was given the chance to help others, even after my time on Earth was over. I became a guardian angel. And you...are the first person I’ve been assigned.” Slowly, she withdraws her hand, letting the strange, silver glow from her palm recede.

Clearly struggling, Sasuke mumbles, “I...I don’t u-understand…?”

“Your grief is tearing you apart, Sasuke. Others have tried to reach you, to help you. But you’ve turned them away. The path you follow has darkened...and would have ended dead on this sidewalk if I hadn’t intervened. I’m here to guard you, guide you...and help you find your right path again.”

He takes to pacing. This is all...too much. An angel - an honest-to-God angel - is supposed to...what? Become his therapist? A friend? This doesn’t make any sense! He’s never cared for faith...and his brother being on Death’s door isn’t going to change that.

Hinata waits, watching him patiently.

“...I was going to die. That car…?”

“Yes...as your guardian, it was my task to stop it.” Her posture softens. “...does that not open your eyes?”

“...what do you -?”

“Your mother would have lost another son tonight. Your father, too. Have you lost sight of the fact that you are not the only one grieving…? Your brother means the world to you...but not only to you.” Palms cup his face, watching him flinch as he expects another thrum of heavenly energy. “...I know what it is to leave family behind. Please, Sasuke...look at what you are pushing away. Your family is worried about you. They can’t take another heartbreak. So please...let your anger rest tonight. Go home. Hug your father. Tell your mother you love her. Don’t let what you have slip through your fingers.”

...it’s then it really seems to hit him. He was slated to die. Bound to leave his mother without another son. “...I…?”

“It’s not too late - that’s why I’m here. To help you find your second chance.” She smiles at him, seeing his mind begin to change. “...I’ll go with you. Don’t worry. No one else can see me. Now...shall we head back?”

Staring up at the angel’s face, it takes just a moment to make up his mind. “...a-all right.”

He sneaks in through the back door. Apologizes to his father. Embraces his mother. Both seem confused...but accept their son’s apparent change of heart, looks of hope on their faces.

...and then, he goes upstairs to his brother’s room.

Itachi is asleep, looking gaunt as always. Shallow breaths lift and let fall his chest.

...he’s not alone.

Sitting along the edge of his bed, with a hand resting atop his sternum, another angel stares down at him with a sympathetic gaze. As Sasuke opens the door, she looks up, the same moon-like eyes as her counterpart wide in surprise.

“...Sasuke…?”

In a moment they both vanish, Itachi stirring to give his brother a glance.

“...yeah. It’s me.”

The elder brother smiles, watching him approach. “...I was having the strangest dream...of a light, and...glowing eyes…” He takes a deep breath, and then sighs. “...I feel...rested, for once.” When Sasuke doesn’t reply, staring intensely, he asks, “...what’s wrong? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

“...no. Not quite. I’m...glad you’re feeling better. Go back to sleep. I’ll see you in the morning.”

Itachi’s brow furrows slightly, but he gives a nod. “...goodnight, Sasuke.”

Once the door closes behind him, Sasuke slumps against a wall, a hand over his face as shoulders shake. He hears the whisper of Hinata’s movement. “...Sasuke…?”

Struggling to compose himself, he can only murmur, “...thank you.”

“...we’ve not reached the end of your road. Nor has Itachi his. But...it’s a start. You shouldn't thank me yet, but...you’re welcome.”

     Word count: 1452      Cumulative: 13,332      Man this prompt gave me some trouble! I don’t really have much of a verse for this sort of thing: I’ve only used this particular one once, and not for quite some time. I almost forgot I had it!      This one isn’t as...romantic, but hopefully it still counts as SasuHina. I really enjoy the idea of Hinata as a guardian angel - it’s something I might have to visit again later. But for now, I’ve got a headache, and it’s late...time to sleep. I’m not sure if I’m 100% happy with this, but this was my second attempt, and I’m too tired to try again xD It’ll have to do! Hopefully tomorrow’s will be better~